Manchmal wünsche ich mir, ich würde gar nichts mehr fühlen

letzte Sonnenstrahlen

Holding on, the days drag on 
Stupid girl, I should have known 
I should have known 

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me 
Cause I'm still trying to figure it out 
Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking 
Trying to see through the rain coming down 
Even though I'm not the only one 
Who feels the way I do

ein bisschen Sommer

Manchmal wünsch ich mir, ich könnte die Zeit zurückdrehen und ein anderer Mensch sein

Here we go, welcome to my funeral 

Without you, I dont even have a pulse 

All alone, its dark and cold 

With every move I die

Here I go, this is my confession, no 

Lost cause, nobody can save my soul 

I am so delusional 

With every move I die

I have destroyed our love, its gone 

Payback is sick, its all my fault

Im dancing with tears in my eyes 

Just fighting to get through the night 

Im losing it (losing it, losing it) 

With every move I die

Im faded, Im broken inside 

Ive wasted, the love of my life 

Im losing it (losing it, losing it) 

With every move I die

When did I become such a hypocrite? 

Double life, lies that you caught me in 

Trust me, Im paying for it 

With every move I die

On the floor, Im just a zombie 

Who I am is not who I want to be 

Im such a tragedy 

With every move I die 

Were you just kidding?

Cause it seems to me
This thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened
Please tell me cause one second it was perfect
Now you're  out the door

So heres to everything
Coming down to nothing
Heres to silence
That cuts me to the core
Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute but I don't anymore

Cirque des rêves

Der Zirkus der Träume ist voller Zauberrei.
Doch im Grunde nur eine Liebesgeschichte.
Ein Liebespaar das gemeinsam alles schafft und sich über das normale Leben hinaus noch liebt.
Zwei Menschen die sich gegenseitig mit den größten Geschenken beeindrucken und trotz großer Distanz zusammen kommt.

Er schafft ihr ein Ort der ihr die Sorgen nehmen soll

Und sie schafft ihm eine andere kleine Zauberwelt

Eine glückliche Liebe?

Ein wunderbarer Traum, aber ein Traum an den ich kaum noch wage auch nur zu denken,

dafür ist er zu unwirklich geworden

Das Buch der Nachtzirkus ist sehr empfehlenswert :)

Es wäre alles so anders, wenn mein Leben ein Film wäre

Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stairs
Six months gone and I’m still reaching
Even though I know you’re not there

I was playing back a thousand memories baby
Thinking about everything we’ve been through
Maybe I’ve been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside til I came out

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you’re sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie, you’d be here right now

I know people change and these things happen
But I remember how it was back then
Locked up in your arms and our friends are laughing
Cause nothing like this ever happened to them

Now I’m pacing down the hall
Chasing down your street
Flashback to a night when you said to me
Nothing’s gonna change, not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside til I came out 

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you’re sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie, you’d be here right now

If you you’re out there, if you’re somewhere, if you’re moving on

I’ve been waiting for you wary since you’ve been gone

I just want it back the way it was before

And I just want to see you back at my front door

And I say

Come back, come back, come back to me like

You would, before you said it’s not that easy

Before the fight, before I left you out

But I take it all back now

Come back, come back, come back to me like

You would, you would if this was a movie

Stand in the rain outside til I came out

Come back, come back, come back to me like

You could, you could if you just said you’re sorry

I know that we could work it out somehow

But if this was a movie, you’d be here right now

You’d be here right now

It’s not the kind of ending you want to see now

Figure out a better ending

Oh

I thought you’d be here right now

Whoa oh

Thought you’d be here right now . . .

If my life was a movie
I was scripted so differently
Starting with the scene where you left me
See I changed the part where I break down into tears
If my life was a movie

I would be so cool
I wouldnt miss you
I wouldnt hate you like I do
I would just move on
I would be so strong
I would be better without you
Cause in Hollywood, things always end up like they should
And its all good

If my life was a movie
It would not be, no tragedy
I will not let you get to me
I would ride up in the sunset
Youd be easy, easy to forget
By produce it, directing it

I would be so cool
I wouldnt miss you
I wouldnt hate you like I do
I would just move on
I would be so strong
I would be better without you
Cause in Hollywood, things always end up like they should
And its all good 

Hollywood, its all good, good, good, good

If my life was a movie
I would be so cool
I wouldnt hate you
I would just move on
I would be better without you

Id be cool
Wed be true
Cause I wanted love too

Id be strong
Youd be gone
Because I love you
I would not break down
I just wouldnt know how
I wouldnt miss a thing

Cause in Hollywood, things always end up like they should

I would be so cool
I wouldnt miss you
I wouldnt hate you like I do
I would just move on
I would be so strong
I would be better without you
Cause in Hollywood, things always end up like they should
And its all good

Its all good, Hollywood
Its all good, Hollywood
Cause in Hollywood, things always end up like they should
And its all good